i often find it hard to verbalize what i'm thinking. sometimes things are so overwhelming that i can't express it. sometimes there are too many variables to condense into words. sometimes my head is too full to process everything. mostly, though, i'm confused by the polarity.
so, (no pun nor sarcasm intended) thank God for a Holy Spirit that interceeds on our behalf. for those times when we don't know how are what to pray--He takes care of it. whew! what a relief from worry about worrying! what a joy for joy unspeakable! what a liberation from bondage! what a help in my helplessness! what an aid in my brokenness!
of course, there are responsibilities that come with it, but it's totally worth it. to be a slave to Christ carries awesome responsibilities and awesome benefits. the paradox of freedom because of slavery is yet one more thing that requires the Holy Spirit to speak on my behalf--for i am speechless.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
what now?
Lord, what are You teaching me now?
what is the thing You want me to get through my thick head?
i simply ask that You show it to me, make me aware so that...well, as i pray, i realize every reason i can offer for 'why' i want to know is selfish. break my heart and my will and make me wholly Yours. teach me in Your good timing and within Your perfect will.
(show me what it means to be truly)
sincerely & humbly, i pray. amen.
what is the thing You want me to get through my thick head?
i simply ask that You show it to me, make me aware so that...well, as i pray, i realize every reason i can offer for 'why' i want to know is selfish. break my heart and my will and make me wholly Yours. teach me in Your good timing and within Your perfect will.
(show me what it means to be truly)
sincerely & humbly, i pray. amen.
Friday, June 5, 2009
back to it
i've had a bit of "vacation" this week--that is, i've not been as diligent at some important issues as i should have been. time off is good; don't get me wrong on that. but, its time to snap back to it and get back into good habits and discipline.
please don't judge me too harshly, for i didn't fall into those habits. but, i'm ready to get back to the life that God blesses. and these things are the things i've been blogging about: reading, health, family time.
God above, keep my resolve true and sure. let me only do that which praises you in word, action and attitude. i am Yours and want to be appropriately bound to You in every nuance of my existence.
please don't judge me too harshly, for i didn't fall into those habits. but, i'm ready to get back to the life that God blesses. and these things are the things i've been blogging about: reading, health, family time.
God above, keep my resolve true and sure. let me only do that which praises you in word, action and attitude. i am Yours and want to be appropriately bound to You in every nuance of my existence.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
a balance of realization (or a realization of balance)
as sure as Jesus is returning, i know that most people don't realize how bad they actually feel. if "this" is normal, they'll label it as "fine". this is their point of reference; this is their standard. this is where they look to establish a baseline of health for all future questions.
the problem is that for most, this is not the best it can be. this is not what God created our bodies to do and to register as "normal". we acknowledge, spiritually speaking, that God has a greater design in mind for us, that He has a greater plan for us. i'm just not convinced that many realize that includes our health.
let me establish a couple of things before i go any further. first, i'm not trying to promote any agenda of healthy living or any miracle cure for the blahs. i'm not pronouncing judgement on anyone. i'm just raising questions and a challenge. secondly, i know that all disease and ill-health are results of the Fall (reference Genesis). Since we are all sinful people, we can't know the full potential for health and optimal-body-experience for which we were created. we've fallen from reaching that standard on this side of heaven (perhaps the "new body" is not actually any spiritual form, but simply a sin-untainted body of the same make and model).
it's just that we're making it worse than necessary.
i'm typing this from a local spot: baked goods, coffee and free wi-fi. but, as i look at the clientel of morning commuters: i can see 9 people, of which i am one. 6 of them are overweight, half of those are obese (one of them is morbidly obese). the guy at the table next to me is on his 4th cup of coffee in about 30 minutes.
again let me say: i'm not here to judge. but, i'm curious if they've ever been taught a better way. do they know that there is better health available without a perscription? do they know that Jesus loves them the way they are, but doesn't want them to stay that way? do they realize that good choices are all it takes--well, maybe that's the issue: choice. sounds like (at very least parallels the concept of) sin.
well, back to me, for i am the only one for which i am responsible and accountable. this whole visualization of a better life is because i'm "a bit groggy this morning". i'm usually not a morning personality, but my body sings "early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee." but, not today.
last night i didn't sleep well. i went for a walk this morning in hopes of reviving (which is nearly always the case with a brisk morning walk)--not so much. i took a hotter-than-usual shower, thinking it would perk me up--not the case. i need coffee. no, i enjoy coffee. but, to need it implies addiction.
why is my sorry self dragging this morning?
well, i'm not in a mood to confess too much to you in this particular blog post. but, as i look back over the past few days of the weekend, and in fact, the entire last week, i see a clear path of poor choices. not the least of which include: lack of exercise, poor food selections, overactive food selection (aka over-eating), irregular sleep choices--you see my point.
Oh my Lord, Creator of this body, i have failed to care for this temple in the way that pleases You. please help me to get rid of this mindset that allows for excessive bad choices and stark good choices in the name of americanism. create in me a willingness to face food choices with positivity and the knowledge that You empower me to choose well. let me not give into temptation. i am Yours. all of me: spirit, mind, body and emotions. amen.
the problem is that for most, this is not the best it can be. this is not what God created our bodies to do and to register as "normal". we acknowledge, spiritually speaking, that God has a greater design in mind for us, that He has a greater plan for us. i'm just not convinced that many realize that includes our health.
let me establish a couple of things before i go any further. first, i'm not trying to promote any agenda of healthy living or any miracle cure for the blahs. i'm not pronouncing judgement on anyone. i'm just raising questions and a challenge. secondly, i know that all disease and ill-health are results of the Fall (reference Genesis). Since we are all sinful people, we can't know the full potential for health and optimal-body-experience for which we were created. we've fallen from reaching that standard on this side of heaven (perhaps the "new body" is not actually any spiritual form, but simply a sin-untainted body of the same make and model).
it's just that we're making it worse than necessary.
i'm typing this from a local spot: baked goods, coffee and free wi-fi. but, as i look at the clientel of morning commuters: i can see 9 people, of which i am one. 6 of them are overweight, half of those are obese (one of them is morbidly obese). the guy at the table next to me is on his 4th cup of coffee in about 30 minutes.
again let me say: i'm not here to judge. but, i'm curious if they've ever been taught a better way. do they know that there is better health available without a perscription? do they know that Jesus loves them the way they are, but doesn't want them to stay that way? do they realize that good choices are all it takes--well, maybe that's the issue: choice. sounds like (at very least parallels the concept of) sin.
well, back to me, for i am the only one for which i am responsible and accountable. this whole visualization of a better life is because i'm "a bit groggy this morning". i'm usually not a morning personality, but my body sings "early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee." but, not today.
last night i didn't sleep well. i went for a walk this morning in hopes of reviving (which is nearly always the case with a brisk morning walk)--not so much. i took a hotter-than-usual shower, thinking it would perk me up--not the case. i need coffee. no, i enjoy coffee. but, to need it implies addiction.
why is my sorry self dragging this morning?
well, i'm not in a mood to confess too much to you in this particular blog post. but, as i look back over the past few days of the weekend, and in fact, the entire last week, i see a clear path of poor choices. not the least of which include: lack of exercise, poor food selections, overactive food selection (aka over-eating), irregular sleep choices--you see my point.
Oh my Lord, Creator of this body, i have failed to care for this temple in the way that pleases You. please help me to get rid of this mindset that allows for excessive bad choices and stark good choices in the name of americanism. create in me a willingness to face food choices with positivity and the knowledge that You empower me to choose well. let me not give into temptation. i am Yours. all of me: spirit, mind, body and emotions. amen.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
update
just wanted to pass along an update. i finished a book this weekend. sure, i started it more than 6 months ago, but in light of my previous post, i just wanted to let you know i'm taking myself seriously (but not too seriously).
Friday, May 29, 2009
reading
i like to read, but i don't take time to do it. my to-do list of books is always growing and never shrinking--because i add to it without subtracting from it. so, i wonder what strategy i need to adopt in order to check them off. i wonder what will motivate me. i know that i typically can't put a book down once i start it, but its the starting that isn't happening.
suggestions or ideas?
well, as with all good things, i guess i'll have to take the first step. i'll set a goal and i'll go for it, for to try and fail is better than to never have tried at all.
suggestions or ideas?
well, as with all good things, i guess i'll have to take the first step. i'll set a goal and i'll go for it, for to try and fail is better than to never have tried at all.
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